woke up. at 9. had rice for breakfast which i really dont feel like having.
tried my maths tutorial. end up not doing it at all.
watch tv for 3 whole hours.
had chips. soda.
vomitted. unwell
lie on my bed for another 1 hour.

i am just wasting my life away.

i have plasters all over me. yes very painful.
my sis tried helping me to put the plasters over my wounds.
very helpful! really cause me extreme pain.
i feel like a sick bird.

today the weather is cool.
i cant swim. cant let the chlorine get into my hair.
i starting to lose interest in the things that i love.
i starting to lose faith in everything that i do.
i starting to lose my own breath.
i starting to get more n more tired no matter how much i sleep
i starting to bleed bcos i couldnt stop scratching myself
i starting to think of what others are doing

i feel like my world so small.
i'm typing in the dark. there's only light from the little gap of the window
there i could feel some fresh air.

going for steamboat later.
cheers!
cheer me up!